I've decided that I HAVE to get back into doing WW. So I think today and tomorrow I am going to get back into the swing of things with tracking, drinking water, etc and then on Friday go weigh in. If I blog it, I must do it. Right?
Troy mentioned last night that I should try out for Biggest Loser. I said, I could do that, but that would mean that I would be gone for a long time. He seemed to rethink that and said, well, maybe you can just go running around here while we are in school all day. He was so sweet about it, it brought tears to my eyes. I know he said that one of the kids at school told him I was fat. Hunter got really upset about that (that a kid would say that about me). But the kid was right. Is right. It makes me wonder how my being upset about my looks affects them. Here I preach to them about how being different or fat or tall or short is NOT what matters, but yet, I am giving off the message that it actually does.
There are some days where it's REALLY bad. Like when you are supposed to be going somewhere and you want to look nice, but everything you try on doesn't look right or fit right. Then you start throwing clothes around your closet, your room, your bathroom. What? You don't do that? PUH LEASE. The frustration hits an all time high and you think, I don't want to go to this stupid event anyway. Then you consider staying home so you don't have to feel or look as uncomfortable as you are.... so you go, feeling like a fat slob, and smile the whole time when the truth is, on the inside, you are counting the minutes down so you can leave or praying that no one notices how your stomach is hanging over your jeans or that you look 5 months pregnant and you aren't....
- it is HARD to lose weight when you have 4 kids, a husband, and a house to take care of.
- It's hard for me to take care of me when I have 5 other people to take care of.
- It's easier to grab a granola bar or rice krispie treat or something CONVENIENT.
- Same with the frozen meals.
- I can make excuses because I have 5 people to back me up. ;)
- I'm just not consistent.
So that's where I am at the moment and I hope to be in a better place soon. I'm setting short term goals because looking at the big picture can be overwhelming. It's the same way with dealing with the housework...